I started my tumblr and my twitter as outlets. A space where I could unload everything and anything I was feeling or thinking out. Somewhere people at school wouldn’t see and somewhere I didn’t have to worry. But now the minute I tweet something I get a text saying “omg is that about so-and-so”. So I’m going to start being less guarded because honestly I’m sick and fucking tired of being afraid to say what I feel. I’m sick of not having a place to vent. Here goes nothing..
Friends don’t do shit like that. They don’t ditch you. They don’t hang out with you and use you to their convenience. They don’t lie to you. They don’t tell people your secrets. They don’t do you wrong and then not apologize. They don’t completely ignore you. The saddest part is coming to the realization that you’re no longer best friends with someone you were so close to. I’m sad but I’m not that sad anymore. Its a mourning but one that I’m not allowing to affect me. It sucks. It truly does. But in the end I know who I have. And that’s just not who I thought it once was.